Practicing gratitude has been the big buzz topic over the past few months. I’ll be honest and say that even though I recognised the merit in it, it didn’t quite click for me. While I understood that you need to be grateful for all that you have in your life in order to appreciate all that you want or think you want it just wasn’t a very helpful tool for me in my day-to-day life. I tried practising it by writing down what I was grateful for each day (as advised by all the gratitude gurus) but that lasted a week and then of course I beat myself up for not sticking with it. I had sort of put myself down as just not a spiritual enough person to really be able to grasp gratitude.
That was until we lost our lovely Lady a few weeks ago. Anyone who knows us knows that she was our first baby and we loved her so much. If you’re not an animal lover you just can’t comprehend how much it is possible to love the life out of your pet but we really did. We got her 8 years ago as a puppy and when she was about a year old we broke up. For the next year we shared her, himself having her Monday to Friday because he had the bigger garden and me having her at the weekends. No joke, we did the half way point drop off and everything. Then one day when she was staying with me she ran out in front of a car. For 24 hours we didn’t know if she was going to make it because she had tyre marks on her stomach and the vet feared that she was bleeding internally. Thankfully she only had a broken leg but it was an awful time and in nursing her back to health we managed to get our shit together and here we are now almost 3 years married with Frankie.
So you’re probably thinking what has gratitude got to do with this? Didn’t the dog die?
I used always cry at the very thought of losing Lady and when it did happen those feelings of sadness were ready to overwhem me but something clicked in me when I saw her for the last time and instead of wallowing in the grief and self-pity I started thinking of all the things I could be grateful for. The lovely times we had with her, obviously, but also the fact that she didn’t suffer from a long illness which is something we had always said we’d have hated for her. The fact that we had Frankie before she died was a massive help emotionally as if we hadn’t had him to focus on it would have been harder. Getting to say goodbye to her was also on the list along with lots of other things too.
Since that gratitude came to me it seems to be sticking around. I’m finding I’m able to turn my thought process around a lot over the past few weeks and I really hope it lasts because it makes for a much happier mind, a fitter mind I suppose. I know it’s not easy for everyone to really get on board with the concept of gratitude but now that I have I’d love to be able to spread it around. It certainly doesn’t make every minute of every day perfect but it does help. So I just thought I’d share that little insight with you all and hopefully it helps someone else even in a small way.